HOLD THE ROPE OF HOPE!!

I was slightly disturbed at work and didn’t want to carry it home.  All throughout my career I have never ever felt let down, I knew giving up wasn’t easy and at the same time  felt like being pushed to a corner. Was I getting emotional about my profession? I couldn’t judge my thoughts and people around me.

A claustrophobic ambiance, deadlines, challenges, opportunities, qualms, complaints…very unsupported situation! I decided to sit with a cup of green tea hoping my mood gets filled with energy. God sent angel as they say , a senior gentleman with almost 3 decades of professional experience joined me with his steaming cup of coffee. My eyes were filled and voice chocked, he glanced and knew I was disturbed.

I said nothing, he said these words ‘Stay and speak positive but expect the worst’! Sounds contradictory isn’t it?  He left the pantry with a smile and ignited my thoughts. Well, actually, there is no harm when we expect the worst and the best happens. The human mind always loves happiness, so why disturb??Coming to reality it is such a simple strategy for contentment and happiness. A challenge to keep emotion and intelligence miles away, but worth a try!

Something that I learnt today…stay calm, dream big, hold on to the rope of hope…and there is definitely light at the end of the tunnel!

Happy b'day to me!!

I am not unique,many women of my age start going through this phase( not many disclose fearing social hiccups), the joy of being to oneself is something that has to be experienced. The myth is to blame physiological changes, spend day and night and all the bucks with medics for an analysis 'Imbalance', 'Depression', blah blah!!!

Every conversation with children ends up either with cooking or sincere advise! work at office becomes tasks and challenges..a quick chat with mom or mom in law lands up in worrying...a buzz to a friend gives a hundred thoughts and finally unwinding the day with updates to hubby...ends up with physical desires or loud snoring!!! anyone really have time for me? well it is my problem because I have disorders diagnosed...

I spoke a doc friend, she said it is the age, the science taking over in  my system. Different people several interpretations about the changes in me. Wonder how quick things get noticed when the general social circle is busy looking into materialistic interests.

I hate this transition in me or have I actually fallen in love with my inner self? A very easy going and bold person , well should I say once upon a  time ! I'm getting tough within me, my emotions control me these days, I am scared of losing people in my life but I am enjoying the closeness within me, the feeling that I am not alone , a feeling of rebirth!

I have fallen in love with myself...happy birthday to me!